The thing is, where I left off in February of last year is radically different than where I pick things up today. Mainly because my sweet, sweet baby Vera Grace was born on October 29th and life most certainly is not the same.
(If you're interested in seeing pictures of our sweet Vera, there will be many to come on here...I'm a new mom after all! But for now, here is a slideshow of just a few of the amazing pictures that one of my dearest friends, Jenna did for us during Vera's birth. I am reminded through this what a gift photos are. These images are special to use beyond words. http://www.jennawalkerphotography.com/slideshows/veragrace/)
When I originally named this blog "Humphreys in Between" I had no idea that really, all of our life is an "in between" time. Right now, we are in the midst of transitioning to a family of 3 and our "in between" is a time that alternates between the highest highs of happiness we've ever experienced, and an overwhelming sense of how much there is to do and learn as we start navigating the murky waters of parenthood. How do I find my new sense of identity between the "old" Katie and the new Katie that someone now calls Mommy? (well, not yet...she's smart, but she's not talking yet! ;) How do Chris and I find a new relationship somewhere between the "old" us and the new us that now is consumed with caring for this little person who we both love so much that frankly, it's quite frightening at times. The in-betweens keep changing, but we are still a family in flux and taking one day at a time as we embrace this new reality.
The last year was by far the most challenging of my life thus far, and really the reason that I avoided blogging was because quite simply, I wasn't in a place to be able to get my thoughts out in a coherent sentence nor did I have the ability to stomach the heavy realities and big questions that I was faced with. Pregnancy was not kind to me (to say the least) and although the arrival of Vera was more than worth it, it's not a time that I'm necessarily eager to reflect on or to remember. However, I'm realizing that the things I went through during those 10 months are some of the most important lessons I've yet to learn in life and are the insight I was given during my pregnancy thankfully has woven its way into pieces of my new day to day life with Vera. And since Vera has come into our life and brightened our world, I feel like I'm ready to take a stab again at putting some thoughts to paper.
So where does this leave me with this blog? It too will be something different than it used to be, that is for certain. But I hope it will be a space that reminds me of the things we're going through during this beautifully treacherous, unbelievably precious, and joyful time.
Until next time. :)
